Hi world and Peace be upon you :)
Jyeahh, it's already 0225 hours in the morning.
I'm just finished doing my late night chores - cleaning the kitchen, wash the dishes and etc.
What I'm thinking I'm doing now? It's not like tomorrow is holiday or I'm taking a day off.
Actually I am not satisfied about something.
And that's maybe the main reason why I am updating my blog right now; at this moment.
People,
will you guys stop calling me with something I don't belong to.
YKW, I realized that since in elementary school until this present time.. other people like to give nicknames for me. My elementary schoolmate did call me pizza and tol just because it sounds similar to Eizah and Farhatul. They keep teasing me and of course, I hate it damn so much.
I love my name given by my parents. It has a nice meaning which means 'shines of happiness honor'.
But kids back then makes me hate my own name because they keep, giving me a bad title. -,- I am std six on that time and get easily touched by so many things especially the worst one. so to be frank, I cried once because of this matter. LOL,
Anyway I thought that, as I am already a grown up teenager.. people wouldn't do this stuff - giving bad title or mocking my name etc. But still, it happens. This what I'm going to complaint about.
Lalalala~
Calling me Salam even my name is Eizah. What's the point??? *emotional people get emo* I don't even close to that so called Salam lahh -..-" Perhaps that, whoever calling me that way doesn't meant to hurt me. Maybe it just for fun and jokes. Kinda. At first, I am taking this matter lightly, no biggie. But as time flies, making fun of me doesn't make me fun at all. I got humiliated. It's quite much.
Not just that... Calling me 'sotong' out of nowhere. It's quite embarrassing . Seriously. But as people whom calling me that way are friends of mine, so ignore it. That's a joke too right? No hard feelings please.
But as I realized that the 'sotong' is actually suits me so well because it's related to my weaknesses - being too flexible and for my awful body language, I got mad. Not mad actually but a little bit offended.
Said umi, "Kalau kawan kita hormat kita, dia takkan gelar kita sesuatu yang kita tak suka. Tambah pulak gelaran tu diberi disebabkan kelemahan kita. Seorang kawan takkan gelakkan kawan dia kerana kelemahannya" *ouch* and that's the moment I started to think that I don't like to be called that way, seriously.
The latest nickname among the others is to be called 'mak mah'.
me, mak Mah? What the.... o..O Calling me that way and let the whole class knowing it sarcastically. This is too much lah. He called me that way and in the mean time, still calling me Salam - this so a burdensome. I'm not that stressed just to think about this 'nicknames' stuff which I dislike. But it's partially affected me when I got called the way I don't want to, on the moment it happened. My confident level dropped drastically and I even don't have courages to stand in front and give my own opinion in the class. I assumed that I am getting called mak Mah out of my clumsiness. I thought so. It's my bad being clumsy.
Anyway guys, take note this, whether it is logic or not, that so called given title to me or even the title suits me damn pretty well.. don't call me with something I don't want to and don't belong to. If it's for jokes and fun, don't be too much or I'll offense and hate it.
Guys, it seemed I've took a long time to type an entry. This is my first own-made entry in English. So if there's any mistake or error in grammar and etc. I am so sorry because it happened that I'm not good in English. Err.. *awkward face*
Finished on, 0324 hours. I bet umi must get mad knowing that I'm not sleep yet and tomorrow might be my sleepy-day ever !
Morning Malaysian and Good Night Eim and Hanan :)
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Assalamualaikum, Adios.
Thursday, October 11, 2012
Sunday, October 7, 2012
Eizah Membebel untuk Hanan dan Izzah Fauzi
Assalamualaikum..
Hello ada orang tak???
Sekarang neh dah pukul 5 petang (waktu Malaysia) and hari Jumaat.
Finally aku berblogging semula setelah agak lama tak menaip entry.
Semua gara-gara sibuk melayan twitter, kononnya.
Melihat kepada situasi aku mengapdet blog ne, paham-paham je lahh yang bahawasanya
twitter dan pesbuk aku pada saat ini tersangat membosankan.
Apa yang aku nak cerita...
Hari ne aku rasa kosong, lost, takde soul and takde live langsung.
kerja aku seharian, bangun, ngemas rumah, solat, makan dan tidur. balik-balik menda ne jeh yang
aku dok ulang tayang. Bukan aku tak cuba study dan buat revision bagai.
Asal nak membaca jeh.... mata aku time-time tu jugaklah nak terasa beratnyeh.
last-last, tertidurlah aku bertemankan buku-buku. Dramatik, bukan?
Semenjak dua menjak ne tahap kerajinan aku dah berkurang sangat-sangat.Tak boleh macam ni! Periksa STPM sem 1 tinggal lagi kurang sebulan. Aku tak patut hilang fokus.
Aduhai.. tak lain tak bukan sebab aku dipengaruhi dgn emosi yang tersangat tak stabil - siked-siked nak patah hati. Pantang nampak muka dia rasa nak mengamuk je. Dia tak buat salah pon. Aku sendiri rindu sangat dkt dia. Tapi sbb tak boleh terima situasi skrg - yang aku dengan dia dah tak rapat cam dulu, aku bajet emo je memanjang depan dia.
Izzah betul. Aku je yang melebih-lebih layan perasaan aku. Sepatutnya aku buat macam takde pape yang berlaku. emh, tapi aku betul-betul tak boleh buat biasa. My bad!!
Dia text adik aku. Aku tak marah. Cemburu mungken? waduhhh.. childish gile aku, macam sakai -,- . Dia rasa aku dah tak wujud ke? Dia sedar tak yang dia text tuu adek aku? Apesal dia buat adek aku tuu macam adek dia? So stupid. Senyap-senyap aku stalk jugak conversation diorang. Rindu doe. Err.. aku, bajet jual mahal lepas tu bila dia ignore aku, mulalah aku buat assumption and perseption yang bukan-bukan. huduh sungguh perangai.
I AM HOPELESS BUT HOPING
Bila dia jauh beberapa meter depan aku, senyap-senyap aku ngusya dia. pehh.. dah gaya stalker handalan, mengalahkan junior bila aku ngusya *malunyeh*. Tapi bila dia dpn aku, punyalah nak avoid eye sight, kononnya.. aku buat-buat tak kenal dia pulakss. *hampehpunyabudak*
Lebih teruk lagi, bila dia bercakap dengan aku face to face, boleh pulak aku angkat paper tinggi-tinggi buat macam dia tak wujud and act rude dekat situ. Aku tak tahu apa yang aku baca dekat paper tu. Act aku baca zero. Act aku nak je berbual dengan dia. tapi bila dia bercakap dengan aku, menda ni lah yang jadi. BTW, YKW.. I even yelled at him once. The reason obviously tak logik langsung. HAILAHHH. Aku taktahu kewarasan aku ke mana time neh.. Apa motif aku???? *stresssendiri*
anyway, apapun yang aku dah buat atau tnjukkan. dia tak pernah respon apa-apa, macam nothing happened. sbnrnye mmg nothing had happened pon. Ouch! nampak tak betapa syok sendirinye aku neh. Alahai.... sadis!
Maaf kpd yang terbaca. Frankly, aku tak rasa pon ada yang terbaca entry ne that's why I am quite berani nk tules mende mengarut like this stuff. kinda. lagipun I am not going to publish this entry on my TL or twitter sbb absolutely obvious entry kalini lebih kepada catatan hati aku sendiri. Dulu, bila ada prob syok sendiri macam ni.. selalunya I told Hanan or Izzah. Sekarang Hanan dekat Cairo Egypt nun. Macam mana pulakk nk contact. Izzah Fauzi pulak skrg tgh dlm preparation utk exam next week and in additon tgh ada personal prob. No way la I will burdened her with my silly prob neh.
taw tak. there's something funny jadik semalam. Time my sis turun downstairs.. secretly aku stalk conversation dlm phone dia. seriously tak sempat nk stalk hape pon sbb I've took a long time untuk decide nk stalk or not. I felt so immatured doing those things tapi in the same time sgt curious. *takbolehnakelak*
baru seminit dua pegang, my sis dah naik semula. as usual, sbgi seorang yang sangat lemah bab kaver mengkaver neh... tak psl2 tercampak jauh phone tuu. KANTOI. and then my sis expected that I stalk phone dia. She did provoke me saying I am crying for something I didn't do. Penat menafikan. but so sudden... I burst into tears lepas tuh.
Makkkkkk. malunyeh nangis dpn adik sendiri. awuuuu *mencix100!!* I am even clueless macam mana lah boleh tibe-tibe menangis lps kena provoke siked. I bet I can't kept my thaught and frustration for long. Pon begitu, sesungguhnya aku rasa sangat berdosa cry over a guy. Am I bad muslim girl? tangisan aku adlh kerana miskinnya cnta dan rnduku pd NYA. aku patut menangis kerana DIA instead of dia, right?
oklahh.. aku chiao dulu. habes dah membebel - rasa light siked hatijiweraga neh. huhu.
ASSALAMUALAIKUM wbt
[notakaki] Imran, Thanks sbb pakai baju tshirt ungu tuu. It suits you pretty well, tak tipu. I like you wearing that outfit, seriously agak terharu. err~ aku assumed kau appreciate pemberian aku as you're wearing it. So, thanks again. take care kat sana. wish your out and inside always in peace and calm. jangan sedih-sedih dan enjoy lah bercuti kat Sinai tuu. :)
Hello ada orang tak???
Sekarang neh dah pukul 5 petang (waktu Malaysia) and hari Jumaat.
Finally aku berblogging semula setelah agak lama tak menaip entry.
Semua gara-gara sibuk melayan twitter, kononnya.
Melihat kepada situasi aku mengapdet blog ne, paham-paham je lahh yang bahawasanya
twitter dan pesbuk aku pada saat ini tersangat membosankan.
Apa yang aku nak cerita...
Hari ne aku rasa kosong, lost, takde soul and takde live langsung.
kerja aku seharian, bangun, ngemas rumah, solat, makan dan tidur. balik-balik menda ne jeh yang
aku dok ulang tayang. Bukan aku tak cuba study dan buat revision bagai.
Asal nak membaca jeh.... mata aku time-time tu jugaklah nak terasa beratnyeh.
last-last, tertidurlah aku bertemankan buku-buku. Dramatik, bukan?
Semenjak dua menjak ne tahap kerajinan aku dah berkurang sangat-sangat.Tak boleh macam ni! Periksa STPM sem 1 tinggal lagi kurang sebulan. Aku tak patut hilang fokus.
Aduhai.. tak lain tak bukan sebab aku dipengaruhi dgn emosi yang tersangat tak stabil - siked-siked nak patah hati. Pantang nampak muka dia rasa nak mengamuk je. Dia tak buat salah pon. Aku sendiri rindu sangat dkt dia. Tapi sbb tak boleh terima situasi skrg - yang aku dengan dia dah tak rapat cam dulu, aku bajet emo je memanjang depan dia.
Izzah betul. Aku je yang melebih-lebih layan perasaan aku. Sepatutnya aku buat macam takde pape yang berlaku. emh, tapi aku betul-betul tak boleh buat biasa. My bad!!
Dia text adik aku. Aku tak marah. Cemburu mungken? waduhhh.. childish gile aku, macam sakai -,- . Dia rasa aku dah tak wujud ke? Dia sedar tak yang dia text tuu adek aku? Apesal dia buat adek aku tuu macam adek dia? So stupid. Senyap-senyap aku stalk jugak conversation diorang. Rindu doe. Err.. aku, bajet jual mahal lepas tu bila dia ignore aku, mulalah aku buat assumption and perseption yang bukan-bukan. huduh sungguh perangai.
I AM HOPELESS BUT HOPING
Bila dia jauh beberapa meter depan aku, senyap-senyap aku ngusya dia. pehh.. dah gaya stalker handalan, mengalahkan junior bila aku ngusya *malunyeh*. Tapi bila dia dpn aku, punyalah nak avoid eye sight, kononnya.. aku buat-buat tak kenal dia pulakss. *hampehpunyabudak*
Lebih teruk lagi, bila dia bercakap dengan aku face to face, boleh pulak aku angkat paper tinggi-tinggi buat macam dia tak wujud and act rude dekat situ. Aku tak tahu apa yang aku baca dekat paper tu. Act aku baca zero. Act aku nak je berbual dengan dia. tapi bila dia bercakap dengan aku, menda ni lah yang jadi. BTW, YKW.. I even yelled at him once. The reason obviously tak logik langsung. HAILAHHH. Aku taktahu kewarasan aku ke mana time neh.. Apa motif aku???? *stresssendiri*
anyway, apapun yang aku dah buat atau tnjukkan. dia tak pernah respon apa-apa, macam nothing happened. sbnrnye mmg nothing had happened pon. Ouch! nampak tak betapa syok sendirinye aku neh. Alahai.... sadis!
Maaf kpd yang terbaca. Frankly, aku tak rasa pon ada yang terbaca entry ne that's why I am quite berani nk tules mende mengarut like this stuff. kinda. lagipun I am not going to publish this entry on my TL or twitter sbb absolutely obvious entry kalini lebih kepada catatan hati aku sendiri. Dulu, bila ada prob syok sendiri macam ni.. selalunya I told Hanan or Izzah. Sekarang Hanan dekat Cairo Egypt nun. Macam mana pulakk nk contact. Izzah Fauzi pulak skrg tgh dlm preparation utk exam next week and in additon tgh ada personal prob. No way la I will burdened her with my silly prob neh.
taw tak. there's something funny jadik semalam. Time my sis turun downstairs.. secretly aku stalk conversation dlm phone dia. seriously tak sempat nk stalk hape pon sbb I've took a long time untuk decide nk stalk or not. I felt so immatured doing those things tapi in the same time sgt curious. *takbolehnakelak*
baru seminit dua pegang, my sis dah naik semula. as usual, sbgi seorang yang sangat lemah bab kaver mengkaver neh... tak psl2 tercampak jauh phone tuu. KANTOI. and then my sis expected that I stalk phone dia. She did provoke me saying I am crying for something I didn't do. Penat menafikan. but so sudden... I burst into tears lepas tuh.
Makkkkkk. malunyeh nangis dpn adik sendiri. awuuuu *mencix100!!* I am even clueless macam mana lah boleh tibe-tibe menangis lps kena provoke siked. I bet I can't kept my thaught and frustration for long. Pon begitu, sesungguhnya aku rasa sangat berdosa cry over a guy. Am I bad muslim girl? tangisan aku adlh kerana miskinnya cnta dan rnduku pd NYA. aku patut menangis kerana DIA instead of dia, right?
oklahh.. aku chiao dulu. habes dah membebel - rasa light siked hatijiweraga neh. huhu.
ASSALAMUALAIKUM wbt
[notakaki] Imran, Thanks sbb pakai baju tshirt ungu tuu. It suits you pretty well, tak tipu. I like you wearing that outfit, seriously agak terharu. err~ aku assumed kau appreciate pemberian aku as you're wearing it. So, thanks again. take care kat sana. wish your out and inside always in peace and calm. jangan sedih-sedih dan enjoy lah bercuti kat Sinai tuu. :)
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