It has been long since my last time posting entries in this blog.
Kalau tengok entri yang lepas, kononnya nak buat series lah apalah.
Sembang ~~~
ahahahahah.
Tapi lani, dah lawa balik blog, dah groom sana-sini so mood tu tengah ada.
"Why not Jah. just start typing and posting whatever yang terlintas." My thought bring me to this.
Tak kisahlah cerita zaman bila, dah berlalu lama atau barusan tadi.. Even tak sync with chronology pun, (niatnya) hendak dihamburkan saja semua (atau sebahagian darinya).
What is SIGGC 2017?
SIGGC stand for Sintok International Game and Gamification Challenge 2017; ssebuah pertandingan peringkat besar-besaran yang julung-julung kali dianjurkan UUM dalam bidang rekacipta ni. And this competition mark of new achievement of myself, alhamdulillahi Rabb al 'alamiin.
before going straight to let you know what kind of achievement had I achieved (that is, if you : readers really exist tho), maghi nak ceghite sedikit apa yang aku dah lalu untuk capai ke situ.
SIGGC was solely brought by Dr Adib in my OIC class. dalam kelas yang cuma berpelajarkan 4 orang pelajar sahaja tu, he came up with the idea untuk jadikan involvement in that very competition as quiz we had to take. So hendak tak hendak, everyone agreed to proceed.
Week after week passed. Untuk seminggu dua yang pertama, hanya Dr. sahaja yang paling bersemangat bererita tentang pertandingan ini kepada kitorang; pelajar-pelajar beliau ni. He was talking about potential, new experience, exposure to joint networking dan sebagainya yang kitorang akan dapat (and benefited) kalau masuk pertandingan tersebut. Masuk minggu-minggu kemudiannya, tidak dapat dinafikan aku ikut termotivasi dengan galakan dan dorongan yang beliau (rajin) berikan setiap kali mengajar di kelas. I mean, this SIGGC thing I am about to work on, I will be working with my heart, gituh.
Silently I begun thinking and do some self-brainstorming. Because at some point, I get to be really atrracted to join this competition maka aku pun mulalah beria fikir tentang ini sahaja pada kebanyakan masanya. I am not doing this for quiz sake by that time. Niat tu dah melencong nak buat bersungguh sebab dan terjatuh hati untuk betul-betul involve, sebab dah termotivasi (seperti yang aku sebutkan tadi). Tambahan pulak as one after another OIC classes passing by, Dr semakin rajin jugak bercerita tentang progress team beliau yang satu lagi (because he's sending off 2 teams on the behalf of the Jabatan, fakulti and so on). Eventually (even I was in denial actually) hal yang sedemikian buatkan aku sangat tercabar. Somehow-lah kott aku tercabar. In shaa Allah in a good term tho, perasaan tu, it awakes my creativity. Yeah maybe I could said so.
Why tercabar? Padehal aku sebenarnya spesis-spesis yang jarang terkesan dengan cabaran. Sebab more to self-driven. Aku hendak, aku buat. Aku buat sebab aku yang decide hendak proceed. like that. So tbh, it goes like this... dalam team Dr yang satu lagi, student cuma dua orang. Even lesser compared to our (OIC class) team and actually Dr ada favor sorang student ni because pembawakan dia yang sangat baik (read : sangat Pentadbiran Muamalat - like, ideal lah gitu) dan dia berbakat dalam hal graphic design. So he keeps appraise him when in our class. About how well that student can design this and that, about how sync he's working on the original idea of what Dr had in his mind (untuk 2nd team punya game product). Thus, when the appraisal gets too much, I get quite (too much?) uncomfortable. Kenapa tak selesa? Iya sebab aku pun kaki graphic design jugak. I am so into the graphic design (dan lain-lain cabang seni : reka lagu, fashion design, novel writing even puisi pun and etc blablabla) cumanya tak well known macam that guy. That hurts me, unintendedly I felt hurt. Rasa macam dibanding-bandingkan walaupun secara hakikinya Dr tak membandingkan antara aku dengan dia. Well that's initiate my (hibernated) competitive side. That's why.
The tougher part was, bila minat aku dah ada, and rasa tercabar tu buat lebih bersungguh lagi... it turned out aku apparently nmpk sgt pushy dan beria sebab the other members, didn't share the same vision as mine at that particular time. At first the whatsapp group we had, sangat krikkrik. I tried to get others to involve so I don't feel like giving self-credit all to only myself, tapi tak berbalaspun usaha aku seberia yang aku curahkan. The boys (since dalam kelas OIC aku seorang sahaja pelajar perempuan) tak semenggah pun nak membalas (of course I understood that student had so much prior commitment relatively to this SIGGC thingy) and had I known later, input-input - preparation document of my original idea yang aku send dalam group takdan dibaca pun oleh mereka.
I was a little disappointed of course. but babbling would not help I knew. Aku still nak kena jaga air muka aku jugak sebagai perempuan supaya taknampak begitu mendesak dan hendak nmpk memahami (tentang betapa dorang ada banyak lagi assignment menimbun yang lagi prior than this one game-competition-quiz-in disguise). I am still their fellow colleagues after all. Seminggu dua minggu tiga minggu beria sorang-sorang, rasa tercabar akupun boleh mati semula sebenrnya. Ada masa yang aku memang dah terfikir untuk back to proceed ala kadar sahaja upon this SIGGC. Malulah nak beria sorang. ahaha. and true, sebab actually agak penat nak buat sorang. Graphic designing is one load works (bagi noobies cikai macam aku). Tambah pulak bila aku je yang buat, dan tak ada yang nak meraikan pendapat aku, memang at first rasa in vain sangat usaha-usaha itu.
Lebih kurang berbaki 10 hari lagi sebelum the competition day, by that time baru the boys in class give a damn pada this thing. Tak sempat semangat aku nak mati, aku bersemangat balik. slowly but surely, the group whatsapp mula riuh balik, at the very least of ada orang yang nak respon aku... I am so much better by that time. Macam mana aku tahu budak-budak ni tak pernah baca pun segala dokumen kejadah yang aku send in group whatsapp (about the game's rules and regulation, step to play and so on)? Sebab depa mengaku. Later I know that diorang punya busy and already preoccupied by other commitments tu maksudnya, sampaikan takdan bacapun. dorang nak kena terang satu-satu face to face, verbally. So I did. And so they helped in tambah baik things here and there, pada hal-hal yang aku takdapat putuskan. for the imaginary ideas of mine, they helped in becoming the pelaksana of the idea. Pergi keluar masuk tempah and amik game card (crucial part jugak kann nak mewujudkan bebende ni semua) sesungguhnya berjaya dek jasa baik team members yang lain juga.
--- Grateful
Back to the achievement on SIGGC 2017 that marked off my additional achievement in UUM (Selain AKJ 2015 : Anugerah Budayawati UUM and Naib Johan Pertandingan Juruhebah Radio peringkat negeri Kedah). This acah-beria-dilema things paid off bila dianugerahkan GOLD medal untuk game product yang dipertandingkan. Alhamdulillah satu kelas dapat full mark untuk kuiz yang pertama dalam kelas OIC tu. heh. Gold medal does not mean we got first place, as they use cluster(grade like) system. Tak kisahlah tempat keberapapun sebenarnya, that 'gold' term soothes the heart tho.
Selalu, bila aku menyertai sesuatu... orang atasan aku (superior, penasihat, lecturers, seniors etc) kebiasaannya tidak melihat apapun ada pada aku (i swear this is true feels dohh - pernah jadi masa kes pergi pertandingan juruhebah dulu. k, pnjg nanti kalau #tb). Even on something I really worked hard on, or on something I had potential on... I am usually, barely being acknowledge by. Hanya pada pencapaian yang tak seberapa begini sahaja kadang-kadang yang jadi modal penyejuk hati balik. Untuk pujuk that part on how low reliable-li-ty nya aku pada orang (atasan aku esp) lain.
Congrats all. kalau tak kerana ada group members, I would not even make it to the d-day (sbb pagitu terlajak tidur mati). End of story. Haaaa.. mujur ada the boys.
---- Grateful again.
** sudahnya asyik kena menganjing je dalam kelas sebab dikatakan tidur pukul 3pagi malam sebelumtu. sorry if I easily feel butthurt Dr. I don't simply sleep late bcs I wanted too. bcs I really did pouring my heart on wha I am working on, so as per simple joke.. kadang-kadang terjugak bawak ke hati.
Sorry for being atypical girl, maybe? hahah
p.s. No... I don't feel any kind of jelousy or iri hati towards the 'that boy in other group' yang I said initiate my competitive side. It really was in a good way he affected me. No way lah. Having somehow same interest on some similar field of thing actually blessing, tahu tak. Sebab ada peluang bertukar-tukar ilmu sebenarnya (eventhough won't happen antara aku dan dia) in fact, Dr sebenarnya yang initiate those feels. good stratgy Dr. I am motivated enough. hahahah.
OKAY, done satu entry berjela (nakharam panjangnyaaaa.)
Entri kemudian ni aku akan payung gambar masa d-day of the SIGGC 2017 okay.
(eventho takdek readers yang nak baca. sowhuttt)
sorry much sebab jutaan typo detected. biasalah kepala otak lagi laju dari jemari yang menaip. Nak catch up punya pasal, itu yang tunggang langgang jadinya. Off to #peskonuum30 gaiss.
regards,
Jah.
